Is what I want impossible? Could it all just be a dream? I wrote long ago that the greatest battle I will have to face in life is knowing myself...but that is wrong...the greatest battle I will have is in knowing my desire is not that of another. It is in knowing that everything that I love and cherish and want will not be mine because it is not my decision to make or for my effort to bring about--for I have already made my selfish choice.


Then again, we do always tend to think that the hardest thing is that which we are dealing with right now.